Can I just… install my room with EVERYTHING I need to live in it 24/7 without ever having to go out and deal with people and things that just make me sad? Please? I guess I need a bathroom, a water source, a fridge/freezer, lots of hot pockets and yeah… I’m absolutely set.
So today…..
- Clean my room
- Clean sister’s room (she just went away to uni and I just need to straighten things for her so it can sit like that for several months.)
- Eat something good for lunch
- Finish “The Mark of Athena”
- Watch at least one sappy chick flick
- Write a letter
- Skype with sister
- Start putting Christmas stuff away
Right. Let’s see how far I get with this. :)
Will someone PLEASE tell me that everything is going to be okay?
I am having a REALLY difficult time lately…my whole life is a mess.
I need someone or something… or I just need to have hope that my life won’t crash and burn like it seems to be.
PLEASE.
What is this problem of wanting to lay in bed all day doing absolutely nothing… not even caring at all? Every time I get up and try to do something I get irritated and find myself right back where I began…in bed.. I hate this. Am I depressed? Probably. I can’t shake it…
I’m a little sad.
My job that I have been working at for a year and a half is ending…..
It’s been difficult at times and I’ve struggled with the stress/worry/etc but without telling you all the details it just… it is such a part of my life… and it’s coming to an end.
So, the next chapter begins…
At least I will have the holidays off — that is the WHOLE of Christmas vacation with my family. I am going to shop, bake, listen to Christmas music, watch movies, watch Doctor Who and pray it snows.
When January comes…. my life will be a whole lot different.
Right now feels like.. “the deep breath before the plunge.”
Today I am going to clean & decorate my room for Christmas!! I will also see if I can get the rest of the house decorated too. Haha. Then I might stop by a couple stores to see what is left after the madness yesterday! :)
I’m sick :( Meh, I dislike this. I was sick last year with strep throat in September and I hope that’s not what this is going to turn into again. Blah! I just don’t like feeling tired, achy, headaches, sore throat…lazy. Ha.
I need a Doctor.
Like…
I was literally sitting here, so sad.. there’s a LOT weighing on my heart about my life right now… and I was just feeling really down about ALL of it. And it’s my birthday tomorrow, and I feel old. LOL.
But then… the one person that I needed messaged me out of the blue… RIGHT at the very moment when I had tears streaming down my face.
He said, “Happy Birthday tomorrow.”
That changed everything.
This isn’t the first time, it won’t be the last.
He’s always there to save me when I need it.
Why can’t we be together?
CRAZY dream last night. I was in London and for some reason I was attending a big celebration in the park. Anyway, I was sitting on a blanket under some huge trees when Prince William walked up and sat down by me. We just started talking for about 15 minutes, and I can’t remember what was said. Haha. I remember his wife was there — and she wasn’t too happy about it. LOL! He genuinely LIKED me though.
What in the world? I’ve never even really THOUGHT of him before in my life… must have been seeing him at all the Olympic events. Strange.
It was supposed to be a good day, it most definitely is NOT. :( :( :( :(
